It's back to more n more exco meetings again..

Yeapp.counting $$ really not ez..im like so scared of facing $$ again..argh..sometimes i feel i just gotta do what i like to run away from: Accounting! Sick man..never liked accounting..argh

But it seems He has complete trust in me..oh well..i accept it. Already..I feel the burden.

Today the Triumph of the cross is a reminder that God is with me and I am not alone in all this. Sometimes I feel i have lost my passion to serve in a ministry. I am so sick and tired of all the politics n watever that runs within all this. Sometimes its plain bull**. I grumble to Him..i keep hoping i would never consider serving again.

I wanted to just run away. Run away from everything

And to make things worse..She's going away too..sigh

Boy..i need You..Really..It's a long long journey....But i'll run with you..i will try.

I'll try to love my service in this ministry. I'll try my best to serve. I'll try.

Though sometimes I just wanna give it all up.

looking ahead @ 2008, it is so uncertain. Everything. I dunno what will lie ahead. I dont even know if I should go for mission trip. I dunno..

But when i look @ the cross..I guess that YOU reawlly died in love for me. I know u did..for why bother to let us be co-heirs of your kingdom? Why even bother to suffer humiliation, knowing it's not worth it?

John 3:16 says it all...

Matt 11:28..is what i hope to cling on to for the upcoming 3 months. No more repeat of 2003..no more..

I must try to run..cannot give up...argh.....For YOU i will.