Hey babe Thanks for your hot v-day presents. Suddenly i feel like the woman..wahaha..I t's the most romantic v-day present ever received :):) love u :)
Yeapp.counting $$ really not ez..im like so scared of facing $$ again..argh..sometimes i feel i just gotta do what i like to run away from: Accounting! Sick man..never liked accounting..argh
But it seems He has complete trust in me..oh well..i accept it. Already..I feel the burden.
Today the Triumph of the cross is a reminder that God is with me and I am not alone in all this. Sometimes I feel i have lost my passion to serve in a ministry. I am so sick and tired of all the politics n watever that runs within all this. Sometimes its plain bull**. I grumble to Him..i keep hoping i would never consider serving again.
I wanted to just run away. Run away from everything
And to make things worse..She's going away too..sigh
Boy..i need You..Really..It's a long long journey....But i'll run with you..i will try.
I'll try to love my service in this ministry. I'll try my best to serve. I'll try.
Though sometimes I just wanna give it all up.
looking ahead @ 2008, it is so uncertain. Everything. I dunno what will lie ahead. I dont even know if I should go for mission trip. I dunno..
But when i look @ the cross..I guess that YOU reawlly died in love for me. I know u did..for why bother to let us be co-heirs of your kingdom? Why even bother to suffer humiliation, knowing it's not worth it?
John 3:16 says it all...
Matt 11:28..is what i hope to cling on to for the upcoming 3 months. No more repeat of 2003..no more..
I must try to run..cannot give up...argh.....For YOU i will.
But so many things have happened. So many......It comes and goes like a flash.
But often, im kept wondering..Why do events turn out like this? Why? Im starting to question my service, my relatonship with people..my life..everything.
Why am i in my ministry? Why do I choose to do what i want to do? Why so many uncertainties in relationship with people i love? Why does she even wanna patch back after so long? Why?
And I ask God why..why..why...
And I guess I sort of know the answer....
But i wont tell why..bcos i know that whatever has happened has got a reason.
He knows about it. And I pray and hope he'll keep giving me more pleasant surprises in my life as well.
Because I know that the reason why he does this so is because he loves and cares for me.
I am going to north spring pri sch next week from july 3-6!! yea..hope its fun n enjoyable 4 day stay.. and hopefully something i can take home some experience and invaluable lessons from the pri school teachers in northspring..since in 3 years i'll be a full-fledged pri sch teacher!! oh man....i hear groans from every1 i know..hehehe
There's a youth day on 7th july for the catholic diocesan confirmants youths..hmm..gg to s'pore expo for the rally as well as facilitating @ st stephen's church! how exciting..whole day gone.. having fun talking to e youths and screaming n dancing..haha
but its my 3rd month with van..sigh..doing God's work more impt i guess...
Than, on 9th july, its to xinmin sec school. wow..even more exciting..cant wait to see how they teach history in class now man..
Ok..NTU Catholic students apostolate camp is coming up..for those of you who wanna find out more..pls get back to me. Its on 24th-27th july for ALL catholic and also non-catholic(welcome to the group)..we welcome pple la..haha..just dont get too intimidated by us..we are a gregarious bunch of pple..hehe. Register with us @http://ntucsafoc2007.awardspace.com/register.html
And also..July 27th-Aug 31, every friday evening @ CANA from 7.30pm-9.30pm is the workshop not to be missed!! Catholic youths come speak to the World!! Please register @ www.acts29mission.org. or get back to me for further details.
Angel network on 21st july..sat aftn. Visiting the elderly in Hougang ave 3 flats in the afternoon..
It will be a good start for all of Acts29 members, as we not only bring them basic neccessities, but with every visit, we hope to bring about the dialogue of being in 'solidarity with the poor'..and being angels to them.. for more info..pls visit www.acts29-acts29.blogspot.com
Yea..im back from payatas for about 4 days already..but im too lazy to blog
Blogging is not my cum of tea in recent months..i realize..im getting sick of it..
1st..i would like to congratulate the CC4s from Christ the King for getting confirmed. May the SPirit continue to walk beside you and journey with you as you activate fully your new gifts.
2nd..I jope that Lucien does not give up on his ministry..ur prayer session was not too bad..considering its your 1st time..keep up e good work..continue to pray and discern.
4rd..I also wanna thank andrina and may B for making my philippines trip memorable..haha..i cannot imagine that even though its my 4th time there, everything seems to be happening for the 1st time.. Thanks for all the laughter and the joy and the fun we had. All the sharings..and really..im so proud of myself for making a 'bumble bee' which doesnt look like a bee..but rather like an anatomy..hahaha. Aiyo..how to forget seeing the naughty pinoy kids play with the 'bumble bee' and putting it at their erm..crouch! hahaha..wa..cannot forget..cant wait to get the fotos from andrina and laugh again..
5th-I wanna wish Stanley and Ryane a perfect and blissful wedding! I hope that you guys can grow in love..arrrrggghh that means..im getting old too..sigh..
6th-Im so happy i bought 3 bo sanchez books Im now on e 2nd book..abit slow la..but i enjoy reading it slow.. I hope when i read Henri Nouwen..i can read faster and understand his philosophical teachings.
7th- I miss the school already..but i hope May B can get things going in payatas..though i hope God will send another person to help her..hmm..it can be quite stressful managing it alone...
8th- I hope that my mum will give me a swedish massage real soon..lol..that will be perfect
9th- My hols are coming to an end..sigh..July is the busy time man
Im a moderately Extravert, slightly Sensing, moderately Feeling and slightly Judging character. So this is what i found out for my own career path. Imagine my shock when i saw e list of job occupations:
Possible Career Paths for the ESFJ:
Home Economics
Nursing = Army combat medic in e past
Teaching =my future vocation
Administrator
Child Care
Family Practice Physician
Clergy or other religious work =thinking/discerning bout it
Office Managers
Counselors / Social Work =thought bout it before teaching
Bookkeeping / Accounting =studied for poly diploma + work
Administrative Assistants=past temp jobs
Oh man..its quite true... wahaha..quite accurate..looking at my career path..lol...Hmm..just not sure bout e clergy/religious part...
I hate blogspot..press something wrongly and everything gets deleted..argh!!!
summary of my past week..im irritated to write again..and also things to do this week
1) went blessed sacrament...for the 1st time
2) saw yuwei's mum..gosh..my ex-gf mum...intro my mum to her mum..who also met her for the 1st time..after our break up 4 years ago..lol
3) watched phantom of the opera...best show i've ever seen. Bought phantom necklace for van :)
4) learnt to rollerblade..finally!! haha..and also went cycling at east coast with van
5) eat and eat..and eat..no exercise...getting fat!! Play games i like....but i suck at using laptop to play pro evolution soccer...
6)Got harassed by a Gay..i think..eeks!! no details to be mentioned.....
7) recce at sentosa for FOC with alex cheryl greg and sam
8) going to Northspring pri sch and Xinmin sec school for july practicum
9) Meeting NorthSpring Pri Sch principal on friday for briefing, tomorrw
10)Outreach for FOC to continue..at 8 parishes..for FOC..this weekend. omigosh..headache time
11) Read '5 people you meet in heaven'..what a beautiful and inspring insight into life...after death...Yea..
12) Met up with Claudia and Xiaomei..Wahaha...the pregnant mum-to-be still surprisingly quite slim..haha..85 more days and she can deliver lo...gotta think of a name for my godson..lol
13) how to avoid making her angry......haiz....im a lousy bf...
14) need to book air ticket to philippines..but e freaking cebu pacific price dam exp!! SGD388 for a budget flight..haiz..going for 1 week nia.....sian
Happy b'day to myself!! wahahaha...dam..getting freaking old man..shit
And i'm sick!!grrrrrrrrr.......
Well..happy enough to be spending my b'day with her tmr..it would be special i guess...since its also our 1 month tmrw...
Yea..cant wait for tmr to come. I hope i can recover tmrw....
Well..perfect b'day present from Arsenal as they give Man Utd the 16th title in their history...fantastic man..e red devils should give themselves a pat on their back for their performances this season...next up will be the FA cup final on May 19..gonna kick the blues ass n make them cry again...lol
And guess what.....may 9 they're playing chelsea!! yea..whoo ho..perfect celebration dei for utd...
And for me as well..thanks pple who celebrated my b'day..very happy...the KTV till 6am..the surprise birthday @ sengkang(though not really)...
Yea..all signs point to a prosperous pig year ahead..yea yea!!
Blogging makes me sick..i dont know why...no mood nowadays.
Have u guys read the news? Its always about tragedy..tragedy and more tragedy...
From Cho Seung Hui bloodbath at virginia tech...to MM Lee call for higher pay for ministers to avoid having a 'dumb govt'..to drownings in canal and beaches..to road accidents in Johor and Malacca....to suicide car bombings in iraq...to poverty in the news..to violence....to maid abuse.....and the list goes on and on
Why arr...Why we humans are bearers of bad news..
Haiz...its time we start to change all this..its time I start to stop nagging n complain..I shall try not to exhibit 'unclish' tendencies from now on..but try and be a bearer of good news.. My mission here on earth is not to be bearer of bad news but rather..to proclaim the good news..the liberty n love of Jesus..
Sigh...i better not be like the saddistic government-controlled media or papparazzi...alwez proclaim bad news. Irritating man...read until im sian...
Yea..exams end on 3rd May...and Its time for FOC outreach at all parishes..aiyo..i dunno who to find to do outreach le...sian..FOC dates on July 17-20..time to recruit someone new to take over me as mass i/c..its time to make a decision for Acts29 commitment...i cant handle being an exco member and Acts29 servant leader...not possible...before i lose my drive..i had better stick to one...
Yeap...hee...singlehood no more..lol . i pity the poor gal...haha...
Phantom of the opera tix..Free! Thanks to LDS..haha..whoo hoo...here i come..on may 13..Shiok arr...
. i pity the poor gal...haha...